Bicara Hati - My Mistake?...

Salam my beloved blog readers. Did you guys have good weekend? Hopefully so. Oh ye, congratulations to Zila (a teacher) who finally granted to a posting back to KL after 5 years teaching in Pahang! Bandar Baru Sentul is missing you too.

Hari ni, aku nak share pasal perbualan aku with someone last week, via FB chat.

A = aku (Salisa Salleh)
B = dia (seorang perempuan)

B: Assalamualaikum.
A: Waalaikumsalam.
B: Awak sihat?
A: Alhamdulillah.
B: Kita dah kawan berapa lama ye?
A: Almost 3 years.

(B eventually hacked into my friend's facebook ID - Z, a guy)

A: Kenapa tanya?
B: 3 tahun tu dah lama kan?
A: Lama jugak.
B: Kita takde apa2 ke?
A: ???
B: Sebenarnya, I bukan Z. I gf Z.
A: Yes, anything?
B: I cuma nak tahu u dengan Z ada apa2 ke?
A: Yeppp... We're friends.
B: Nothing special?
A: Nope.
B: Can I trust you?
A: Depends on you yourself.
B: I tak percayakan bf I tu. I terbaca chat dia ngan u.
A: Uhuh.
B: I tahu dia suka kat U.
A: I pun tahu. Tapi kami takde apa2.
B: Betulke?
A: Betul.
B: Ntahlah. I x percayakan dia.
A: Berdoalah pada Allah. Minta dia tetapkan hati Z. Semoga dia sayang U sorang (as a couple).
B: Tapi...
A: Ermmm?
B: U takkan bgtau ni pada Z kan?
A: Kenapa? Takut dia marah?
B: I tak tahu tindakan I tanya pada U ni betul atau salah.
A: Well, as his gf, maybe you have the rights to know.
(but using his ID? isyk!)
B: Maafkan saya. Maybe saya tak patut buat mcm ni.
A: Takde apa yg nk I maafkan.
B: Tlg jgn bgtau Z ye.
A: ...

After the conversation, I kept thinking, did I do anything wrong, which brought me into this guilty feeling. Was it my mistake? I have known Z for quite some time. I knew him, but like other cases, we never meet each other. The only solid reason, he is one year older than Kimi, my brother, which makes it 9 years younger than me! No hope given, no promises taken. Only friendship. I am so sure B has no idea that we have a huge gap of age. Maybe I just look young enough to steal her boyfriend.

Girls are complicated (girls: refering to age 20 something). Ladies are even more hard to understand (ladies: refering to age 30 something). And especially me, I am super-complicated. U ask me about hati & perasaan, and your question goes unanswered. Maybe that contributes to people expecting things. Good things. Bad things. Maybe I should have just made it crystal-clear, that I am not interested in younger man. But I love having many friends. Don't you?

If Z read this, I hope he learn something here: that her girlfriend did that because of love. She checked on me to know whether his having an affair. She loves him, but not dare enough to ask him directly. Maybe using his ID is not a good idea, bottomline, she cares!

And to my guy friends. Thank you for always being there. As friends.

Until love conquers me...